missing you........

right now i'm missing girlfriends. good,solid, quality girlfriends. friends that you will stop by just to say whats up, that you can sit and watch stupid tv shows with, who loves to gossip about celebrities, girlfriends who are there to listen when you need it, to cry with you, to laugh with you. who know when i'm needing a good friend or shoulder to cry on. friends that don't judge me, but accept me. girlfriends, who even though they may not understand what i'm going through, will be there for me. whatever i need. a friend that never makes me feel bad for being me.
dont' get me wrong, i have a bazillion of fabulous girlfrined just like that- all over the country. but thats the problem, they're all over the country. they aren't here, near me. yes, i can call them on the phone or send them an email, chit chat on im, or just know that they are there, BUT its not the same. i don't have anyone to just come over when i need a friend, or anyone that i can go and grab a drink with and vent. i really miss that. all my life i've had at least a few right near by. in highschool i had all my best friends, college i had some seriously fab/solid friends, and after that i had my SB girls. then i moved down to san diego, away from all my bestests girls. now the closest is in Calabasas, about 2 hours away. which isn't bad, but its through LA and that just sucks. and i can't just call her up and say- hey, meet me here, i need to talk.
feelign a little bit alone. and its no fun. i have steve, he's my bestest bestest friend in the whole wide world ever, but he's also my husband and a guy. girls NEED girls, ya know?
i'm glad to have met all you bloggers out there- i feel i at least have people to *listen* whenever i need to post. but to all my girls all over the country- just know that i miss you lots. i love you lots. and can't wait to see you all again soon (and, by the way, San Diego is a great place to live if any of you are thinking of moving............)